.....My First child....

Hello Beautiful Mammazz!

I still remember the day that I found out I was pregnant... I remember not being able to get out of bed, feeling sooooo EXHAUSTED! I ended up sleeping in that day till past 12pm... when I woke up, I had a feeling that the reason that I was feeling like that was because I was pregnant... but of coarse I wanted to confirm first before telling my fiancee that we were expecting our first child...

Since I was only 20 years old, and live in a small town, I didn't want to go to any of the mom and pop stores here and buy a pregnancy test... so I went to the nearest big city, and went to the Walmart there (they had self check-out lanes) so that no one would see what I was purchasing.... I was sooooo nervous.... So I finally got home and still feeling way to nervous to even take the test... so what did I do? I waited 2 days before I took it...

I finally took it on Sunday Morning... I woke up at around 8am to take it, and I just left it on the counter, and went back to sleep.... When I woke up again at around 10am, I saw, what in my heart already knew... TWO PINK LINES.... but I doubted that it was correct... so I took yet another test... and this time only waited the 3 minutes to find out the result... but I didn't have to wait that long... before I even put the test down, I could see that second line developing.....

Now the hardest part... to tell my fiancee that we were expecting....

That weekend he was out with his friends at a bachelor party... (I trust him :)) and well he was supposed to be back till late Monday night.... but I couldn't wait another day to tell him... so that Sunday night... I gave him a call and I let him know... HE COULD NOT BELIEVE IT... he was sooo happy that he was gonna be a DAD (he is 14 years older than me.. never been married.. and having his first child) ...

I was hoping I could have done it a little bit better (giving him the big news) but I just couldn't keep that from him any longer.... :)

So when he got back we went to a doctor to get it confirmed (once again) that I was pregnant.... and of coarse I was....

There I scheduled my first appt with an OBGYN...

I met with her, and she seemed like a really nice lady... and all... but once she explained to me how her office worked (i would get seen by 3-4 different doctors, and would have my baby delievered by one of those 3-4)... that I didnt like... I wanted it to be ONE doctor that I would see throughout my whole pregnancy.. and that ONE doctor would deliver my baby as well...

It took me 5 months to find that one doctor... and let me tell you, I felt like it was the best decision I could make... I love my new OBGYN... she was more experienced than the other lady... and better to talk to... even tho that pregnancy was soooo smooth... I never felt any morning sickness... not that many cravings.... nothing really too bad that would have made me feel like never wanting to be pregnant again... of coarse I still got those nasty leg cramps... ugh HOW I HATE THOSE!!!!!!!
but not much that I could do...

So then the time went by and now it was just a waiting game... I was still working full time at a bank up until 1 week before I gave birth... and I only stopped because my fiancee had talked me into it.... (but it was good... just because I did need the sleep)

So on May 20th 2009, I went to my weekly follow-up... and as usual my doc, checked to see how dialated I was, only to find out that she BROKE MY WATER... I was in shock! I couldnt believe the day was finally here! I was scared of what I was about to feel, yet I was excited to finally meet this little man that I had been carrying for the past 39 weeks....

So I walked over to the hospital, not feeling much pain at all.... they got me into my room and bed... and I pretty much watched movies from about 11 am till around 7pm... I had been cramping very little up until that time... but then the contractions started getting harder and harder... (I was also being induced) to the point where I was tensing up more and more....

My doctor came in and saw that I was trying to fight the contractions and she adviced me that if I kept on doing that I was going to have to have a C-Section... that was the last thing I wanted... so she told me that I should get the Epidural done, so that it could help me relax... but I didnt want it... I felt like I was cheating myself out of this experience.... but OH MY DID THESE CONTRACTIONS HURT! .... so then I had to choose C-Section (maybe) or Epidural.... so I went with the epidural.... OMG... after I got it done, I didnt feel ANYTHING! it was too the point that I actually fell asleep!

So then I woke up around 11pm... the nurse had just gotten there to check to see how much I had dialated... and I was dialated enough to start pushing already.... I think it was kind of hard for me to push, for the simple fact that the epidural had done what it was ment to do and numb practically my whole lower body... but after about an hour of pushing I delievered my BIG boy... weighing 9lbs and 2oz!

As bad as it sounds, I didnt feel *Love at first sight* with my child... it actually took me a lil while.... but it did feel good to FINALLY be able to hold this big baby outside of my belly...

It was a surreal experience... I couldnt believe that I had created him... (with the help of my fiancee of coarse) :)
But I did not know what to expect from there on....

I will continue with the rest in my next post.........................................


Let me know about your experience when you first held your child for the FIRST time... and how your labor went... and anything else that you would like to share with me....


Love Always!